I decided to start this blog as a way to share my experiences and growth with others, as well as a way to keep myself accountable in moving forward in this wonderful crazy journey. Posting this and making my inner thoughts publicly available was a big step for me, as this is something I have wanted to do for at least a decade or so, but certain beliefs had previously kept me from it. It feels that by doing so, I’m stepping into my own power, and if anything I’m saying here resonates with you, I encourage you to follow my blog or reach out to me. These thoughts and experiences I’ve had couldn’t be contained. They were ready to bubble out, so to speak.
As you may or may not be aware, my dad recently passed away and transitioned from this physical plane about 2 months ago. It was difficult of course, but I was also at peace with the fact that when it’s time, it’s the right time. I still feel his presence. I feel him in songs. I hear him in words or kind behaviors from others. And he is with me in my dreams on a regular basis. Even with this, it was still a hard pill to swallow, and it caused me to look inward. I feel as though I have been off my path for some time. With free will to make our own choices, sometimes poor decisions are made: based on fear, based on a feeling of lack or a feeling that something is missing. And you’re searching for that missing link to make you feel whole. There is no judgment here, we all have our journeys to experience. What I have realized over this little stretch of time is that I was repeating similar patterns in my life, similar events, because of similar thought patterns. Some that lead to peace, and some that lead to suffering and a feeling of lack. Or maybe a feeling that you’re not quite good enough to do xyz… or whatever it is that you’re keeping yourself from that you feel you don’t quite deserve. (Who am I to start a blog? Who am I to start painting just for fun because it’s brings me joy?) Most of us know at this point or have at least heard that whatever vibes and thoughts you put out there is exactly what you receive. #Science … had to throw that in there.
So I looked inward, and asked for guidance- clear guidance that would lead me to truth, peace and the right way of thinking. My answer came in the form of a friend telling me about (or simply reminding me) of this book I came across about 10 years ago called A Course in Miracles. There is a daily workbook lesson in the back of the book that I could never seem to start and be consistent with. He mentioned that there is a new series of videos on YouTube that go along with it. I’m currently on day (37), and thus far, it’s helped me so much. I feel compelled to share… even if this helps 1 person look inward and find a moment of peace, then that is something to be celebrated.
Here is the link to the page: https://m.youtube.com/channel/UCr7RBMo6y1phbdjG3qArj-Q
Here is a link to day 1 of these lessons:
Something I’m also starting to realize is that things bubble up to the surface- certain issues, feelings, or themes- in order for us to see them, offer unconditional Love to that part of ourselves, and clear that issue. It’s not easy work but it is absolutely worth it- to be free of the thought processes that have kept us in the dark. Again if any part of this message resonates with you, please follow or reach out. Thank you for reading! Until next time….
Be that Light – Be that Love,
Stephanie
Dreamer Has Awakened 